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Oct 31.

That might have been the last time I heard from this guy...

Didn't reply to this either! Get a clue!

Also, it's called 'spell check', douche bag.

hey sorry
Between You and Chris F

Chris F
October 31 at 12:16am
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hey i know i prob have seemed super clingy this past week.....

it has not been a good week. Monday sucked, because as you told me you had to cancel (which was fine, if anyone knows about working late its me, so i understand) , i was with my ex, who apparently started working as a nurse at one of the hospitals i work at allot.

so that awkwardness kinda started my week off bad. and then i had a friend get hurt bad on tues. wich really sucked.... and i got in a fight with a frend yest.... so shit has been going down hill quick. and i didnt hear from you after you cancelled and kinda went through a panic attack of everyone i know is abandoning me, and i kinda lost it.

wich leads me to today.
ive done allot of things at work, been in fully engulfed rooms, seen horrible wrecks, been on step slopes in the rain held up by only a rope the width of a pinkie.... etc.


today was the first time that i thought omg this is not good. what the hell do i do. its the first time ive truly had an o shit moment at work.

i was training, and had my tank alert me that i was low on air. i told my crew, and we started to exit the bldg from the second floor. as the crew officer, i made sure my guys went down the stairs first. i got one quarter of the way down, looked over my shoulder to see how far my guys were down (we crawl down backwards) and as i looked up i saw a giant blob of black and reflective stripes hitting me.

my ankle got caught in the stair, as i fell onto my back. i felt the weight pulling me down and felt pain in the thigh of the stuck leg. i rotated my angle and fell down to the first floor. at first i thought it was a dummy, and i couldnt get my radio because i was pinned down. my mask was ripped off my face during the fall, and i had trouble breathing. finally the dummy tried to move, it wasnt a dummy, it was a 300 pound guy who fell onto me. it was pitch dark, and i couldnt breath.

i dont wanna say my life flashed, cause it didn't, but im thinking this was a wake up sign. it only lasted a few seconds, but it was the scariest thing that's ever happened to me.

so the reason im telling you all this, is cause i prob might have come across as a creepy asshole.

so im sorry.

i think your an amazing girl, with an amazing head on your shoulders. im sure you will do fine on your test.

if i dont hear from you, its prob cause i deserve it and i understand.

but i hope i do


- chris